my dearest Jason

So...I have been obsessing over my email...refreshing it about every 3.376 seconds waiting to get SOMETHING from my social worker....anything would be appreciated at this time.  It seems that we have taken the slow route to LOA which isn't an easy place to be......no one can understand why some go quick and some don't but I assume God's timing is perfect so I am sure it's gonna become obvious some day why we waited.  With all of this obsession I have been on edge...today I decided to quit obsessing....to just be thankful for what I have and boy should I be thankful!!!!!  I want to do this blog about Jason because this adoption process has come with such growth for all of us but I am so thankful that God gave Jason to me!!!

I have written about how Jason wasn't on board with the adoption until we lost Chesney and how in the delivery room he brought adoption up and said that we would talk about it as soon as I was ready. God totally used our experience with the loss of our daughter to change Jason's heart.  Well I will tell you that Jason and I had a great marriage before we started this process but I can tell you that I love him even more now then I did then....I love that we are growing together and that I am really seeing him stretch because he loves me.  Anyone that knows Jason knows that he HATES to fly.  Disney trips have been a huge challenge that he has taken for our kids but he HATES to fly...like scared to death.  When we started this process it was just assumed that Jason wouldn't travel.  I mean the facts are that when he took 3 days off of work while I delivered Chesney people got mad.....and also how could he make a 14 hour flight when he HATES to fly.  So we were very thankful that his mom agreed to go with me so that I wouldn't' have to travel alone.

Well after we saw Mabry's face, and the fact that we were REALLY going to travel to get our daughter set in, I started to panic about him not going.  It's not that I can't do it without him...but I don't want to.  I went to him with my concerns and with how I was feeling.  Literally 3 days later the decision was made that he would go for the first week but that he couldn't stay for both weeks because he couldn't possibly take off 2 weeks of work.  I mean folks that is GROWTH.....honestly I still am in shock that he has agreed to take that flight and to deal with the jet lag that is so horrible because of his growth...seriously one of just a few great men that have touched my life and I am proud to call him my husband.  I am still working on him to stay the entire time because I don't want him to fly back alone.  He is considering it but is afraid to take that much time off of work all at once.  We are blessed to have Dr Keller to cover the office for us while we are gone....Jason just doesn't like to put anyone out and he truly cares for and worries about his patients.  He has agreed to consider going the entire time if we can condense the trip to 10 days and since our trip is only 1 province and not 2 that is a real possibility.  I thank God every single night in my prayers for giving me a husband that is willing to stretch himself for me....that is growing with me......and is genuinely the best guy I know!!!